Saturday, July 11, 2009

Hitting a Wall

The “wall” in marathon language usually occurs at about 20 miles in a 26 mile race. Thursday and Friday this last week was a little wall experience. I think it came because of weariness of all the treatment schedule, supplement schedule, myriad of medical treatment decisions that continue to need to be made. On Friday, because my clinical nutritionist identified a huge yeast load through her live blood cell analysis (some looked like giant fur balls), I had the option to go on a anti-yeast pharmaceutical. But that would mean I would have to hold off on my anti-nausea medicine that I take just before my chemo trug, Temador. I decided to hold off on the anti-nausea drig to get started on the anti-yeast drug and Friday evening lost my lunch. So back on the Zofran and off the Diflucan. What a journey! So how do you handle the “wall” experiences?

Isaiah 40:28-31, a favorite passage, has been helpful. Do you not know? Have you not heard? The LORD is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He will not grow tired or weary, and his understanding no one can fathom. {29} He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. {30} Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; {31} but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint. Isaiah reminds me who it is that brought me into existence and for whom I am indebted to for life, especially eternal life. His strength is limitless as is His infinite knowledge of what has been, what is, and what will be. Because of who He is, renewal of strength comes through hope in Him. This is not our culture hope, “I hope this turns out ok” but biblical hope; a firm confidence that God will work out all things according to His goodness (Romans 8:28). Strength is renewed, today is another day, the work crew has already arrived, a great day! because we have a great God!

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

Keeping you in prayer as you and Dottie face so many difficult decisions.

God is good and so many of his people are praying for you....know that you are wrapped in His arms and feel the comfort.

Love, Coll and Mom